Great Day

I had a great day today. Busy at work...but a good day.

I spent some time yesterday in the pool talking to God....ok...stop laughing now....it's probably the only place where I can turn my mind off enough to really talk to him without the distractions of daily life.

I don't have all the answers yet....heck I probably never will....but I felt a calm assurance today. Coincidence....I think not.

Lord, I'm still listening. I'm still seeking your face. I'm still seeking your will for my life.

Thank you for your peace and understanding.

Where Is It?

I have to admit that lately...for about 6 months now....I have felt.....well......out of sorts spiritually. I can't quite put my finger on it.

I'm frustrated....I'm confused....I'm almost joy-less!

I know God loves me....and I love Him. I know Jesus gave all for me and I know he wants me to live a life full....I know all of that....I am aware of all of that....and still.....extreme frustration!

I know some will say that an ordained minister shouldn't feel this way....but I do nonetheless....and I have to deal with it. But how?

Where is the joy?

Where is the peace?

I want that again!

Lord I know you hear my hearts cry....I know you feel my pain and you know my confusion. I need you Jesus to heal this weary heart, to right this warped thinking brain and restore to me the joy of Your salvation!
I will cling to you tighter than I have ever before full knowing and expecting that you, in your boundless mercy and unending grace, will touch me and restore me. I love you!